The struggle is real.

For as long as I can remember, I have struggled with a "grass-is-greener" tug-of-war in my heart. When I was living in New York, I enjoyed my life there and did good in my day-job as a call center supervisor.  I enjoyed most of the people I worked with and was busy as a working musician outside of the office environment.  On the other hand, I did not have a lot of time to work on musician and drumming skills that I wished to improve at myself.  I quit my job, went on a long road trip, and then moved to Nashville.  Now that I am here, I struggling a bit trying to find work as a musician and was hoping that it would be a little easier than this.  I'm putting my faith into following my heart that something will come up and even though I am still booking gigs in the coming months, they are not plentiful enough to be able to live off of, which is my desire, at least until I get married.  The struggle is to keep on working at what I'm working at and to continue as a drummer and musician until I have the opportunity to use what I've been working on to get a gig that is fulfilling and provides me a way of life, at least for a time until I find another good gig.  The only way to not be a success at life is when I stop showing up for life, which I've never been one to do that and have no intention of doing that.